So many nightmares about food.
As wrong as he is, the fact that he noticed my weight loss made me so happy.
First gw reached in 4 days.
I really don’t feel like eating today. I just wanna swim with a couple of friends and enjoy the rest of the summer. 55kg for Berlin is looking good although I broke my fast after ~45 hours yesterday. Still lost a kilo, down to 60.9kg.
For those you who want to add me on my fitness pal; kimazor
What’s the best way to get out of a fast? How many calories and what foods do you eat?
I need to be around 55kg by July 3rd. I’m considering fasting until I’m 55, then I’ll probably gain like 2 or 3kg, but I’ll restrict till I’m 54. Good thing is at the hotel in Berlin theres a gym and I’m probably going to burn any calories I eat there. Or pick up purging. Atm I’m 61.6kg, so I’m guessing I’ll be fasting for a while, possibly a week maybe more.
I feel so bad when i turn down food, just because I know it’s wrong. I do feel proud every night but I feel so guilty. It’s weird, I’m usually happy about it. Then again I feel like shit when I eat so..
When you confess to someone about your ED and they’re like, “But you’re not skinny.”