My well hidden secret

NEW BLOG: FINALLY ACTIVE

Thu, 30 Aug 2012 18:32:00 +0300

WILL BARELY EVER USE THIS ONE; SO IF YOU LIKE THIS BLOG GO FOLLOW FOLLOW FOLLOW

reblogging this from my (ex) main blog

it’s ana-thinspo-personal-drugs-grunge related. I follow back all ana blogs, and if you reblog similar things to my blog I’ll also follow.

I'm so sorry. (An apology to myself)

Tue, 14 Aug 2012 03:32:41 +0300

I’m a weak piece of shit.

I let everything get me down, and I wish things could go back to the way they used to be. I feel insanely alone. I stopped trusting absolutely everyone I know.

It’s probably better, but silly me, I still have to cry about it. I still have to cry about how much I hate being alive, I hate that I can’t be who I want, I hate how I judge myself all the time.

I miss myself. I miss happy me.

I miss my friends.

I miss you.

I wish I could fight for something.

I wish I was motivated.

And I don’t let anyone know how damaged I’ve become. No one knows anything, not even the people who think they do.

I’m so sorry Kimberly. I’m so sorry, honestly. I screw up everything. I haven’t let you feel a thing. I’m sorry I even cut off your psychologist just so no one has to hear what’s bothering your sweet little soul, and I’m sorry I never let you feel a thing anymore. Please stop crying, you know how much I hate it when you do. You know I hate it when you let your guard down, when you cry, when you pity yourself.

Fuck everything.

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Fri, 10 Aug 2012 09:02:02 +0300

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Fri, 10 Aug 2012 01:53:27 +0300

That's what having an eating disorder is like.

Wed, 08 Aug 2012 23:02:17 +0300

Everyone goes through that stage where they have that one friend who they absolutely hate but stays by there side no matter what. That friend who makes them feel like shit, claiming to have them with good intentions. That friend who you try to get rid of, but even when they start to fade away you don’t want to let go of them.

~~My friend is Ana.~~

My best friend is Ana.

I hate her, but I couldn’t live with out her.

I don’t see her as myself, I see her as a different person, screaming at my constantly. The more I try to mute her, the harder she makes me relapse.

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Fri, 03 Aug 2012 11:43:45 +0300

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Thu, 02 Aug 2012 23:50:55 +0300

acidqueeen: galsbeambitious: ok, for ANY reason, i got tons of...

Thu, 02 Aug 2012 23:16:25 +0300

acidqueeen:

galsbeambitious:

ok, for ANY reason, i got tons of notes for this pic… and WTF comments.

people complaining her shoes, people surprised with “western model wearing lolita in a runway”, people going “kyaaa what a cute lolita”, and people going “is this chick mad? too short, too shiny, teddy bear” bla bla bla.

READ THIS PLEASE:

THIS IS NOT SUPPOSED TO BE LOLITA. This is a model (that just happened to be western) wearing Liz Lisa ( _Japanese_ “gyaru brand”) spring collection for 2011, and this is a PAJAMA, explaining her shoes and teddy bear. ok, you can say it is inspired by lolita, but this is a idk the name but is a going-to-bed-dress.

just to clarify de misunderstanding :/

loooooooooooovin this

Starve till you’re beautiful. Starve till you’re dead.

Thu, 02 Aug 2012 23:14:44 +0300

Starve till you’re beautiful.
Starve till you’re dead.

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Thu, 19 Jul 2012 16:39:03 +0300

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Thu, 19 Jul 2012 16:38:03 +0300

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Thu, 19 Jul 2012 13:31:24 +0300

The only eating disorder I have is eating too much.

Thu, 19 Jul 2012 13:22:16 +0300

The only eating disorder I have is eating too much.

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Mon, 16 Jul 2012 09:33:43 +0300

I’m not going to eat while you’re gone. I’m going to cut a lot. I’m going to...

Sun, 15 Jul 2012 17:44:26 +0300

I’m not going to eat while you’re gone. I’m going to cut a lot. I’m going to drink, and probably smoke pot. Why? Because I’m so scared to trust and develop feelings for you that I will screw up before you screw me over like last time.
I hate myself.

I hate my tummy :(

Sun, 15 Jul 2012 14:58:20 +0300

I hate my tummy :(

Sorry for the inactivity, my macbook's dead atm.

Sun, 15 Jul 2012 14:42:55 +0300

Follow me on instagram though?
kim420r
It’s very potheadish, I follow back :)

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Thu, 12 Jul 2012 11:05:48 +0300

Ew

Sat, 07 Jul 2012 18:08:25 +0300

Sorry i know it’s a crappy picture, but one of my roommates is...

Sat, 07 Jul 2012 17:57:39 +0300

Sorry i know it’s a crappy picture, but one of my roommates is in the shower and the other one is near me.